Volume 3 / Book 14 — BOOK XIV. THE NATURAL DEATH OF LOVE.

The Rector of the Parish—His Manner of teaching—Of living—Richard’s Correspondence—The Letters received—Love that survives Marriage—That dies in consequence—That is permitted to die for Want of Care—Henry and Emma, a Dialogue—Complaints on either Side—And Replies—Mutual Accusation—Defence of acknowledged Error—Means of restoring Happiness—The one to be adopted.

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TALES OF THE HALL.

BOOK XIV.

THE NATURAL DEATH OF LOVE.

Richard one month had with his brother been,

And had his guests, his friends, his favourites seen;

Had heard the rector, who with decent force,

But not of action, aided his discourse:

“A moral teacher!” some, contemptuous, cried; }

He smiled, but nothing of the fact denied, }

Nor, save by his fair life, to charge so strong replied. }

Still, though he bade them not on aught rely }

That was their own, but all their worth deny, }

They call’d his pure advice his cold morality; 10}

And though he felt that earnestness and zeal,

That made some portion of his hearers feel,

Nay, though he loved the minds of men to lead

To the great points that form the Christian’s creed,

Still he offended; for he would discuss

Points that to him seem’d requisite for us,

And urge his flock to virtue, though he knew

The very heathen taught the virtues too.

Nor was this moral minister afraid

To ask of inspiration’s self the aid 20

Of truths by him so sturdily maintain’d,

That some confusion in the parish reign’d.

“Heathens,” they said, “can tell us right from wrong,

50But to a Christian higher points belong.”

Yet Jacques proceeded, void of fear and shame,

In his old method, and obtain’d the name

Of Moral Preacher—yet they all agreed,

Whatever error had defiled his creed,

His life was pure, and him they could commend,

Not as their guide, indeed, but as their friend; 30

Truth, justice, pity, and a love of peace,

Were his—but there must approbation cease;

He either did not, or he would not see,

That, if he meant a favourite priest to be,

He must not show, but learn of them, the way

To truth—he must not dictate, but obey.

They wish’d him not to bring them further light,

But to convince them that they now were right,

And to assert that justice will condemn

All who presumed to disagree with them. 40

In this he fail’d; and his the greater blame,

For he persisted, void of fear or shame.

Him Richard heard, and by his friendly aid

Were pleasant views observed and visits paid;

He to peculiar people found his way,

And had his question answer’d, “Who are they?”

Twice in the week came letters, and delight

Beam’d in the eye of Richard at the sight:

Letters of love, all full and running o’er;

The paper fill’d till it could hold no more; 50

Cross’d with discolour’d ink, the doublings full—

No fear that love should find abundance dull;

Love reads unsated all that love inspires;

When most indulged, indulgence still requires;

Looks what the corners, what the crossings tell,

And lifts each folding for a fond farewell.

George saw and smiled—“To lovers we allow

All this o’erflowing, but a husband thou!

A father too; can time create no change?

Married, and still so foolish?—very strange! 60

What of this wife or mistress is the art?”— }

“The simple truth, my brother, to impart, }

Her heart, whene’er she writes, feels writing to a heart.”— }

51“Fortune, dear Richard, is thy friend—a wife

Like thine must soften every care of life,

And all its woes—I know a pair, whose lives

Run in the common track of men and wives;

And half their worth, at least, this pair would give

Could they like thee and thy Matilda live.

“They were, as lovers, of the fondest kind, 70

With no defects in manner or in mind;

In habit, temper, prudence, they were those

Whom, as examples, I could once propose;

Now this, when married, you no longer trace,

But discontent and sorrow in the place:

Their pictures, taken as the pair I saw

In a late contest, I have tried to draw:

’Tis but a sketch, and at my idle time

I put my couple in the garb of rhyme.

Thou art a critic of the milder sort, 80

And thou wilt judge with favour my report.

“Let me premise, twelve months have flown away,

Swiftly or sadly, since the happy day.

“Let us suppose the couple left to spend

Some hours without engagement or a friend;

And be it likewise on our mind impress’d, }

They pass for persons happy and at rest; }

Their love by Hymen crown’d, and all their prospects bless’d. }

“Love has slow death and sudden: wretches prove

That fate severe—the sudden death of love; 90

It is as if, on day serenely bright,

Came with its horrors instantaneous night;

Others there are with whom love dies away

In gradual waste and unperceived decay.

Such is that death of love that nature finds

Most fitted for the use of common minds,

The natural death; but doubtless there are some

Who struggle hard when they perceive it come;

52Loth to be loved no longer, loth to prove

To the once dear that they no longer love; 100

And some with not successless arts will strive

To keep the weak’ning, fluttering flame alive.

“But see my verse; in this I try to paint

The passion failing, fading to complaint;

The gathering grief for joys remember’d yet;

The vain remonstrance, and the weak regret.

First speaks the wife in sorrow; she is grieved

T’ admit the truth, and would be still deceived.”

HENRY AND EMMA.

E. Well, my good sir, I shall contend no more;

But, O! the vows you made, the oaths you swore— 110

H. To love you always—I confess it true;

And do I not? If not, what can I do?

Moreover think what you yourself profess’d,

And then the subject may for ever rest.

E. Yes, sir, obedience I profess’d; I know

My debt, and wish to pay you all I owe—

Pay without murmur; but that vow was made

To you, who said it never should be paid.—

Now truly tell me why you took such care

To make me err? I ask’d you not to swear, 120

But rather hoped you would my mind direct,

And say, when married, what you would expect.

You may remember—it is not so long

Since you affirm’d that I could not be wrong;

I told you then—you recollect, I told

The very truth—that humour would not hold;

Not that I thought, or ever could suppose, }

The mighty raptures were so soon to close— }

Poetic flights of love all sunk in sullen prose. }

Do you remember how you used to hang 130

Upon my looks? your transports when I sang?

53I play’d—you melted into tears; I moved— }

Voice, words, and motion, how you all approved; }

A time when Emma reign’d, a time when Henry loved. }

You recollect?

H. Yes, surely; and then why

The needless truths? do I the facts deny?

For this remonstrance I can see no need,

Or this impatience—if you do, proceed.

E. O! that is now so cool, and with a smile

That sharpens insult—I detest the style; 140

And, now I talk of styles, with what delight

You read my lines—I then, it seems, could write.

In short, when I was present you could see

But one dear object, and you lived for me;

And now, sir, what your pleasure? Let me dress,

Sing, speak, or write, and you your sense express

Of my poor taste—my words are not correct; }

In all I do is failing or defect— }

Some error you will seek, some blunder will detect; }

And what can such dissatisfaction prove? 150

I tell you, Henry, you have ceased to love.

H. I own it not; but if a truth it be,

It is the fault of nature, not of me.

Remember you, my love, the fairy tale,

Where the young pairs were spell-bound in the vale?

When all around them gay or glorious seem’d,

And of bright views and ceaseless joys they dream’d;

Young love and infant life no more could give—

They said but half, when they exclaim’d, “We live!”

All was so light, so lovely, so serene, 160

And not a trouble to be heard or seen;

Till, melting into truth, the vision fled,

And there came miry roads and thorny ways instead.

Such was our fate, my charmer! we were found

A wandering pair, by roguish Cupid bound;

All that I saw was gifted to inspire }

Grand views of bliss, and wake intense desire }

Of joys that never pall, of flights that never tire; }

There was that purple light of love, that bloom,

That ardent passions in their growth assume, 170

54That pure enjoyment of the soul—O! weak

Are words such loves and glowing thoughts to speak!

I sought to praise thee, and I felt disdain

Of my own effort; all attempts were vain.

Nor they alone were charming; by that light

All loved of thee grew lovely in my sight;

Sweet influence not its own in every place

Was found, and there was found in all things grace;

Thy shrubs and plants were seen new bloom to bear; }

Not the Arabian sweets so fragrant were, 180}

Nor Eden’s self, if aught with Eden might compare. }

You went the church-way walk, you reach’d the farm,

And gave the grass and babbling springs a charm;

Crop, whom you rode—sad rider though you be—

Thenceforth was more than Pegasus to me.

Have I not woo’d your snarling cur to bend

To me the paw and greeting of a friend?

And all his surly ugliness forgave,

Because, like me, he was my Emma’s slave?

Think you, thus charm’d, I would the spell revoke? 190

Alas! my love, we married, and it broke!

Yet no deceit or falsehood stain’d my breast, }

What I asserted might a saint attest; }

Fair, dear, and good thou wert, nay, fairest, dearest, best. }

Nor shame, nor guilt, nor falsehood I avow,

But ’tis by heaven’s own light I see thee now;

And if that light will all those glories chase,

’Tis not my wish that will the good replace.

E. O! sir, this boyish tale is mighty well,

But ’twas your falsehood that destroy’d the spell. 200

Speak not of nature; ’tis an evil mind }

That makes you to accustom’d beauties blind; }

You seek the faults yourself, and then complain you find. }

H. I sought them not; but, madam, ’tis in vain

The course of love and nature to restrain;

Lo! when the buds expand the leaves are green,

Then the first opening of the flower is seen;

Then comes the honied breath and rosy smile,

That with their sweets the willing sense beguile;

But, as we look, and love, and taste, and praise, 210

55And the fruit grows, the charming flower decays;

Till all is gather’d, and the wintry blast

Moans o’er the place of love and pleasure past.

So ’tis with beauty—such the opening grace

And dawn of glory in the youthful face;

Then are the charms unfolded to the sight,

Then all is loveliness and all delight;

The nuptial tie succeeds, the genial hour,

And, lo! the falling off of beauty’s flower;

So, through all nature is the progress made— 220

The bud, the bloom, the fruit—and then we fade.

Then sigh no more—we might as well retain

The year’s gay prime as bid that love remain:

That fond, delusive, happy, transient spell,

That hides us from a world wherein we dwell,

And forms and fits us for that fairy ground,

Where charming dreams and gay conceits abound;

Till comes at length th’ awakening strife and care,

That we, as tried and toiling men, must share.

E. O! sir, I must not think that heaven approves 230

Ungrateful man or unrequited loves;

Nor that we less are fitted for our parts

By having tender souls and feeling hearts.

H. Come, my dear friend, and let us not refuse

The good we have, by grief for that we lose;

But let us both the very truth confess;

This must relieve the ill, and may redress.

E. O! much I fear! I practised no deceit;

Such as I am I saw you at my feet;

If for a goddess you a girl would take, 240

’Tis you yourself the disappointment make.

H. And I alone?—O! Emma, when I pray’d

For grace from thee, transported and afraid,

Now raised to rapture, now to terror doom’d—

Was not the goddess by the girl assumed?

Did not my Emma use her skill to hide—

Let us be frank—her weakness and her pride?

Did she not all her sex’s arts pursue,

To bring the angel forward to my view?

Was not the rising anger oft suppress’d? 250

56Was not the waking passion hush’d to rest?

And, when so mildly sweet you look’d and spoke,

Did not the woman deign to wear a cloak?

A cloak she wore, or, though not clear my sight,

I might have seen her—Think you not I might?

E. O! this is glorious!—while your passion lives,

To the loved maid a robe of grace it gives;

And then, unjust! beholds her with surprise,

Unrobed, ungracious, when the passion dies.

H. For this, my Emma, I to Heaven appeal, 260

I felt entirely what I seem’d to feel;

Thou wert all precious in my sight, to me

The being angels are supposed to be;

And am I now of my deception told,

Because I’m doom’d a woman to behold?

E. Sir! in few words I would a question ask—

Mean these reproaches that I wore a mask?

Mean you that I by art or caution tried

To show a virtue, or a fault to hide?

H. I will obey you—When you seem’d to feel 270

Those books we read, and praised them with such zeal,

Approving all that certain friends approved,

Was it the pages, or the praise you loved?

Nay, do not frown—I much rejoiced to find

Such early judgment in such gentle mind;

But, since we married, have you deign’d to look

On the grave subjects of one favourite book?

Or have the once-applauded pages power

T’ engage their warm approver for an hour?

Nay, hear me further—When we view’d that dell, 280

Where lie those ruins—you must know it well—

When that worn pediment your walk delay’d,

And the stream gushing through the arch decay’d;

When at the venerable pile you stood,

Till the does ventured on our solitude,

We were so still! before the growing day

Call’d us reluctant from our seat away—

Tell me, was all the feeling you express’d

The genuine feeling of my Emma’s breast?

Or was it borrow’d, that her faithful slave 290

57The higher notion of her taste might have?

So may I judge, for of that lovely scene

The married Emma has no witness been;

No more beheld that water, falling, flow

Through the green fern that there delights to grow.

Once more permit me——Well, I know, you feel

For suffering men, and would their sufferings heal,

But when at certain huts you chose to call,

At certain seasons, was compassion all?

I there beheld thee, to the wretched dear 300

As angels to expiring saints appear

When whispering hope—I saw an infant press’d

And hush’d to slumber on my Emma’s breast!

Hush’d be each rude suggestion!—Well I know,

With a free hand your bounty you bestow,

And to these objects frequent comforts send;

But still they see not now their pitying friend.

A merchant, Emma, when his wealth he states,

Though rich, is faulty if he over-rates

His real store; and, gaining greater trust 310

For the deception, should we deem him just?

If in your singleness of heart you hide

No flaw or frailty, when your truth is tried,

And time has drawn aside the veil of love—

We may be sorry, but we must approve;

The fancied charms no more our praise compel,

But doubly shines the worth that stands so well.

E. O! precious are you all, and prizes too,

Or could we take such guilty pains for you?

Believe it not—As long as passion lasts, 320

A charm about the chosen maid it casts;

And the poor girl has little more to do

Than just to keep in sight as you pursue.

Chance to a ruin leads her; you behold,

And straight the angel of her taste is told;

Chance to a cottage leads you, and you trace

A virtuous pity in the angel’s face;

She reads a work you chance to recommend,

And likes it well—at least, she likes the friend;

But, when it chances this no more is done, 330

58She has not left one virtue—No! not one!

But be it said, good sir, we use such art,

Is it not done to hold a fickle heart,

And fix a roving eye?—Is that design

Shameful or wicked that would keep you mine?

If I confess the art, I would proceed

To say of such that every maid has need.

Then, when you flatter—in your language, praise—

In our own view you must our value raise;

And must we not, to this mistaken man, 340

Appear as like his picture as we can?

If you will call—nay, treat us as—divine,

Must we not something to your thoughts incline?

If men of sense will worship whom they love,

Think you the idol will the error prove?

What! show him all her glory is pretence,

And make an idiot of this man of sense?

Then, too, suppose we should his praise refuse,

And clear his mind, we may our lover lose;

In fact, you make us more than nature makes, 350

And we, no doubt, consent to your mistakes;

You will, we know, until the frenzy cools,

Enjoy the transient paradise of fools;

But, fancy fled, you quit the blissful state,

And truth for ever bars the golden gate.

H. True! but how ill each other to upbraid,

’Tis not our fault that we no longer staid;

No sudden fate our lingering love supprest;

It died an easy death, and calmly sank to rest.

To either sex is the delusion lent; 360}

And, when it fails us, we should rest content; }

’Tis cruel to reproach, when bootless to repent. }

E. Then wise the lovers who consent to wait,

And always lingering, never try the state;

But hurried on, by what they call their pain

And I their bliss, no longer they refrain;

To ease that pain, to lose that bliss, they run

To the church magi, and the thing is done;

A spell is utter’d, and a ring applied,

And forth they walk a bridegroom and a bride, 370

59To find this counter-charm, this marriage rite,

Has put their pleasant fallacies to flight!

But tell me, Henry, should we truly strive,

May we not bid the happy dream revive?

H. Alas! they say when weakness or when vice

Expels a foolish pair from Paradise,

The guardian power to prayer has no regard;

The knowledge once obtain’d, the gate is barr’d;

Or, could we enter, we should still repine,

Unless we could the knowledge too resign.— 380

Yet let us calmly view our present fate,

And make a humbler Eden of our state;

With this advantage, that what now we gain,

Experience gives, and prudence will retain.

E. Ah! much I doubt—when you in fury broke

That lovely vase by one impassion’d stroke,

And thousand china-fragments met my sight,

Till rising anger put my grief to flight:

As well might you the beauteous jar repiece,

As joy renew and bid vexation cease. 390

H. Why then ’tis wisdom, Emma, not to keep

These griefs in memory; they had better sleep.

There was a time when this heaven-guarded isle,

Whose valleys flourish—nay, whose mountains smile—

Was steril, wild, deform’d, and beings rude

Creatures scarce wilder than themselves pursued.

The sea was heard around a waste to howl;

The night-wolf answer’d to the whooting owl;

And all was wretched—Yet who now surveys

The land, withholds his wonder and his praise? 400

Come, let us try and make our moral view

Improve like this—this have we power to do.

E. O! I’ll be all forgetful, deaf and dumb,

And all you wish, to have these changes come.

H. And come they may; if not as heretofore,

We cannot all the lovely vase restore;

What we beheld in Love’s perspective glass

Has pass’d away—one sigh! and let it pass.

It was a blissful vision, and it fled,

And we must get some actual good instead: 410

60Of good and evil that we daily find,

That we must hoard, this banish from the mind;

The food of Love, that food on which he thrives,

To find must be the business of our lives;

And when we know what Love delights to see,

We must his guardians and providers be.

As careful peasants, with incessant toil,

Bring earth to vines in bare and rocky soil,

And, as they raise with care each scanty heap,

Think of the purple clusters they shall reap: 420

So those accretions to the mind we’ll bring,

Whence fond regard and just esteem will spring;

Then, though we backward look with some regret

On those first joys, we shall be happy yet.

Each on the other must in all depend,

The kind adviser, the unfailing friend;

Through the rough world we must each other aid,

Leading and led, obeying and obey’d;

Favour’d and favouring, eager to believe

What should be truth—unwilling to perceive 430

What might offend—determined to remove }

What has offended, wisely to improve }

What pleases yet, and guard returning love. }

Nor doubt, my Emma, but in many an hour

Fancy, who sleeps, shall wake with all her power;

And we shall pass—though not perhaps remain—

To fairy-land, and feel its charm again.

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